Numbers 14:1-4
1 That night all the members of the community raised their voices and wept aloud. 2 All the Israelites grumbled against Moses and Aaron, and the whole assembly said to them, “If only we had died in Egypt! Or in this wilderness! 3 Why is the LORD bringing us to this land only to let us fall by the sword? Our wives and children will be taken as plunder. Wouldn’t it be better for us to go back to Egypt?” 4 And they said to each other, “We should choose a leader and go back to Egypt.”
One of the things which I find quite ironic is that the best decision I have ever made in my life is the one which I at times regret the most. That ironic decision is my salvation from sin.
Uh oh, I can already imagine the backlash and fury people are feeling in their bodies. “How dare you say such a thing Nathan?!” “You call yourself a pastor?!” And I know that the list of comments and concerns keep going on and on and on. But I think I have made a point here which many people can actually resonate with.
There’s this crazy misconception out there that being a follower of Christ is supposed to be easy and pleasurable at all times. Maybe I’m not a very good Christian or just extremely pessimistic but let me tell you, this Jesus thing is HARD! I stay up some nights and contemplate “just exactly what the heck am I doing?” It’s not so much that I doubt the goodness of God but the path is often times filled with jagged rocks, high hills and tons of bugs.
The Israelites for hundreds of years were living in slavery and it was not plush for them. Their taskmasters were cruel and they did not give the Israelites any respect, even though YHWH worked powerfully for the Egyptians through Joseph. In their slavery, the Israelites wanted to be set free, they wanted to be taken out of the hand of their oppressors and delivered by God.
Finally, one day God decided to answer their prayers in the affirmative. He chose Moses to take His people out of Egypt and lead them to the Promised Land. With great miracles and signs which God performed through Moses, the Israelites were finally free of their oppressors! But one thing they forgot to realize was the fact that to get to the Promised Land, they were going to have to walk a certain path to get there. However easy or difficult this walk may have been, they oftentimes ignored the fact that God was leading them.
The Israelites would have to fight battles and walk through the desert not knowing what was waiting for them tomorrow. Out of much frustration, they began to grumble against Moses and they contemplated going back to the land of their slavery.
“If only we had died in Egypt! Or in this wilderness! Why is the LORD bringing us to this land only to let us fall by the sword… wouldn’t it be better for us to go back to Egypt?”
They did not see that to follow God, they would have to go through a time of trial, a time of testing. When the test began to get too difficult, they wanted to retreat back, even if it meant them being oppressed slaves without any value.
As we walk and follow this Jesus, don’t we find ourselves often asking God, “Why have you made it so difficult for me? I love you but why can’t you throw me a bone here?” Often times because of the difficulty, we would rather go back to Egypt where we might be guaranteed a little something, even though it would ultimately mean our destruction.
The final line of our passage is “And they said to each other, ‘We should choose a leader and go back to Egypt.’” God was the one who was ultimately leading them and even though they are meaning Moses, they are doubting God’s provision and goodness. They have lost faith in the one who sent the plagues on Egypt and the one who split the Sea.
I find that I am often in the place of the Israelites in this passage. I struggle so deeply with certain aspects of my life which I feel should not be this hard. However, we have a God who has done all the work on the cross and won the victory. We have a God who we know is victorious and will one day usher in His kingdom which will reign forever.
I heard a quote once from someone who I cannot recall and it went a little like this, “I have read the end of the book and I know who wins.” This life is hard and there’s very little that we can do to escape that fact. What we can do though is trust in our Creator and show faithfulness to Him which the Israelites were unable to. As God has given us the salvation of Christ and the empowerment of the Holy Spirit, we are given the ability to go through any trial as we depend on His strength. Let’s honor God with our full obedience and faith in Him!
Things to Ponder Upon
1) When have you felt that God has let you down?
2) Are you letting God be in control in these situations?
3) Finish the sentence: If I could ask God to help me change one thing about myself it would be…